Winter, Stay Awhile…

Wildwood Park Toledo, OH

You guys, I get it. I’ve been there every single winter in my adult life. January (after my birthday on the 24th, of course) and through March, I’m SO over winter. I HATE the grey skies, the cold weather, the slushy, brown snow, the freezing rain. After fall, I predict winter to be 5 months so I can prepare myself because it usually IS 5 months long in Ohio. November-March (and eek! Sometimes April!)

But this winter, I’ve really embraced it in the best of ways. Fall is always exciting as the weather changes and our favorite, fall fashions are being worn almost as much as our best boots show. Snow falling for the first time is just as exciting as when I was a kid. But eventually, the fun feelings wear off and we just get tired of winter, right? Not this year.

 

This year, on November 19th, Zekey’s birthday was perfect. Thanksgiving and Christmas were full of much good and blessing. I’m so very thankful for the sweetness these holidays brought.

photo 3-2

The winter weather has kept my kids home an extra week (after a 2 week vacation) which did something magical to Cyrus and Eisley’s relationship. They began to really play well again, like they did before they cared one was a boy and one a girl. They made up new games and it’s a good thing because they’ve had 12 snow/cold days this year! It only made more time for play and forts and I wanted to bottle it up.

photo 5

Bexley loved having them around and was extremely sad when the 3 week vacation let up. I was, too. We were all under one roof, even Zekey missed the extra giggles and feet-pounding around.

photo 4-1

I wish I could look back and think how I tried to focus on pruning my mothering when winter decided to stay awhile in the years past. But this year, my eyes were peeled back and I saw it for all of it’s beauty. The sparkling snow which kept the brown, frozen-hard grass hidden beneath was the perfect picture of what God was doing in this ugly season we face.

I truly think the worst part of winter is when it’s freezing and there is no snow to look at. Blame me if you want, but I kept asking for more snow. I didn’t want to see the cold, ugly ground. As with this season, I’m seeing God in Zeke’s suffering. God is taking cold, hard ground and making it beautiful. And for this, I’m grateful.

photo 4

I’m learning that each day is a gift, each season, even. I’m learning to take what is mine in the present, trials and all, and let God prune me. Let Him make me new. It’s not easy but it’s good.

I don’t know how much longer we have with Zekey on earth, so why would I rush the winter away? I feel like I’d be rushing my Zekey away. I’m not hiding it any more- I don’t want winter to go away, I’m afraid it will take my Zekey, too. I’m stuck between winter and spring (much like most of the midwest). I want to hold my sweet boy, but I don’t want him to suffer anymore.

I pray I take this wisdom and use it in winters to come- to see it for the beauty and let it prune me into more of who I am meant to be in Jesus.

Jeremiah 33:2,3- 2 “This is what the Lord says, he who made the earth, the Lord who formed it and established it—the Lord is his name: 3 ‘Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.’

Can you think of a memory or a bit of wisdom you’ve learned from this winter we’ve had because of the drama winter brought?  Share it in the comments below if you’d like! 

Stay warm, my friends.

11 Comments

  • Reply March 7, 2014

    Shannon Chappell

    I have been ok with the long winter, too. I am not ready for spring & all the “newness” it brings. I’m not looking forward to a new season. I want to stay in the one we are in. I’m guessing new seasons bring new feelings & I’m just not ready for that.

    • Reply March 7, 2014

      bree

      Shannon,

      I relate. I so get what you’re saying. Thank you for sharing that with me. <3

  • Reply March 7, 2014

    AndreaB

    Breena, beautiful thoughts here. I’m a springtime girl myself, so winter is always dreadfully long. One lovely thing I’ve been experiencing during this somewhat-imprisoning winter is a bit more oneness with my husband. Since I don’t like the cold, I don’t want to go out, even to run errands or go shopping. That means I’m spending more of my evenings at home, hanging out with him. I’ve been blessed – our marriage has been blessed – because of this extra time together. We really are pursuing the oneness God intends for marriages. It’s hard, of course, since we’re both still selfish people, but it’s a worthwhile journey. I hope God reveals more beautiful things to you even as the imminent change of seasons greets you.

    • Reply March 7, 2014

      bree

      Andrea,

      I just LOVE this. Isn’t it funny how such dreadful times can reap such blessing, especially if we are willing to let it? Amen to what God is doing and to your willingness to let him.

      Blessings!

      Bree

  • Reply March 7, 2014

    Elaine Heisman

    No matter what the season, I am glad my mother is no longer suffering in this life.

  • Reply March 7, 2014

    bree

    Elaine,

    I’m so glad she isn’t either. Amen.

  • Reply March 8, 2014

    Erin Bilik

    I have loved this winter! I loved that everything stayed white, not grey or dirty looking. I love that winter leads my mind to think of each little unique snowflake falling from the sky is as individual as God’s people. All created by Him and for Him. We are all different and washed white and clean like I imagine heaven to be. When the sun bounces off all those crystals shimmering like diamonds making us reach for our shades, I can’t help but imagine the brightness of heaven.

    • Reply March 8, 2014

      Bree

      Hi, Erin! I LOVE the idea of each individual snowflake representing the people of God. The sun bouncing off of freshly fallen snow was my favorite, too!! Thanks for sharing!!

  • […] Spring has spring and Zekey went with the winter. […]

  • […] and a part of me has felt very at home in this season. It was just last year that I found myself longing for winter to stay because I knew what was coming. Zekey would go with the […]

  • Reply February 21, 2016

    Pooja

    My wife and I have been very blessed in our lives. We have also lived thogruh very tight times ( I. E., blood donations.) We have always felt the love if others. Many times, we picked up the bill for another at a resturant. Other times we paid for another’s groceries. Another time we put together a baby shower for a lady we never met who left an abusive home. Instead of money, we gave a man in the rain a sleeping bag, a coat, and accessories along with a gift card for a meal at Denny’s. When my wife ad I ran into financial issues, we were blessed by people who remained anonymous with a $500 gift card twice. We always asked why. We had a very hard time accepting. Why us? LovePay it forward It will come back when needed

Leave a Reply