The Sometimes Preacher’s wife

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When Andy (thesometimespreacher) and I finally started dating and my secrets of pursuing him finally won (more on our eros love story to come soon!) it was important to him that I was on board with being a pastor’s wife. He knew his calling on his life and wanted to be sure that whatever woman was to stand with him, that they would be on board, too. I incautiously nodded and smiled. I just knew I wanted to be with him and he believed in me (more than I did myself) so everything else didn’t matter- money, where we lived, what we did, as long as it was with him and God.

Gosh did I not know what I was saying ‘yes’ to. ha! Andy didn’t, either. The next 9 years were about to be full of intense, spiritual growth which doesn’t come free. Dating long distance and eventually happily married and a move to Boston for a year, becoming pregnant with our first baby after two months of being married. Two church plants having to be closed before they had a chance. Financial struggles, not caused by irresponsibility. More babies in a city without family, uprooting from a beautiful community in Columbus, OH to live near family because of a son who could die before his 5th birthday.

You guys, it’s been so rough but so, so good. We have laughed and cried (well, I’ve sobbed) together. We’ve questioned God when everything was falling apart. When so much was being taken away from us all while we were following His lead, desperately wanting to follow His will. When some of those closest to us turned their back on us, when our son kept getting worse, when life simply was not fun.

But, it’s these times of trial we have been made new. Always becoming more of who God has for us to be, learning He really is our only true refuge. We’ve seen blessing in the midst of the darkest valley. We’ve learned our need for God cannot be quenched by human anything. We’ve seen the hands and feet of Jesus through healthy community serving us in our darkest days, and we’ve seen those closest to us walk away during these times, too.

I’ve watched Andy lead many into deeper, truer relationships with Jesus. I’ve watched him pour his everything into pastoring a church plant, discipling men and seen them flourish and grow in their faith. We’ve poured hours and love into many young adults who stayed late into the nights eating cookie dough and doing life together. We’ve reaped much good intertwined with the losses and heartaches we have faced – God has been so good to us.And because of Jesus, I can still hold my husband’s hand firmly and look out into our lives and feel blessed. It’s an honor to have all the scars we have because God uses them to bring others to Him, and He is the best thing for us, for you.

Being a pastor’s wife was never a dream of mine but it’s an honor. Andy has been the man who has guided me on a path to becoming all who God has for me to be. He has gently guided me to see God for more of who He is which has brought me much healing. He’s my biggest fan and my favorite pastor. He’s my best ‘yes’. I’m so glad to be on this journey with him and God and our littles.

With all of the healing God has poured out through Andy, for me,  I’ve learned God has beautiful plans for me, too. As I take blind steps of faith towards God, He grabs my hand and gently guides me on a path to becoming all God has for me, scars and all, that through these things, I may point others to Him. I’m so humbled and thankful.

The scars are worth it, to walk humbly with my husband-pastor, The Sometimes Preacher and my God.

16 Comments

  • Reply March 13, 2014

    Breana (Edwards) Wrozek

    Breena,
    I am a latecomer to the Bree Loverly party, but I wanted to drop you a line and tell you how amazing it is! I’m in awe of your strength and grace and am earnestly praying for you and your family. Thank you for sharing part of yourself with all of us.
    Wishing you the best,
    Breana

    • Reply March 13, 2014

      bree

      Breana,

      Welcome! Thank you SO much for your sweet comment and stopping by. Your prayers are so very appreciated.

  • Reply March 13, 2014

    Aunt Jan

    First of all, I have to tell you how stinkin’ cute you two are. If love from others could make this journey easier, you’d be sailing! I praise God you know He holds you…scars and all. Always praying.

    • Reply March 13, 2014

      bree

      Aunt Jan,

      Thank you…he’s my favorite! 😉 I know we would be…we are SO loved and prayed for and we do feel it. Thank you for always encouraging! Love you

  • Reply March 13, 2014

    Jean Holt

    Oh..the crucible you’ve both been in has nothing but refined the pure gold you already are. Christ is definitely being glorified in all you are and have done. I love you very much.
    J

    • Reply March 13, 2014

      bree

      Jean,

      Oh, thank you. So much. For all of these encouraging words and your love you pour out. We love you.

  • Reply March 14, 2014

    Mary Rumschlag

    I am thankful for your heart, Breena. You guys are an incredible inspiration to me and so many others. The world is watching and God is being shown off in a mighty way.

    • Reply March 15, 2014

      bree

      Mary,

      Thank you for your kind words and encouragement. Amen and love to you.

  • Reply March 14, 2014

    Christina Peters del Pozzo

    Your Aunt Tina shared your story with us. As a childhood friend, I was glad she shared her concerns about your journey. Ever since I first read about Zekey, I have had all of you in my prayers. Please continue to share your feelings with all of us out here in the world. May the Grace of God shine through you and illuminate the best part of life on earth.

    • Reply March 15, 2014

      bree

      Christina,

      Thank you so much for stopping over to write this and of course, for your prayers. And Amen.

  • Reply March 14, 2014

    Gretchen Saffles

    Bree,

    This is so beautiful! My parents were in the ministry and my husband works at a church plant in Knoxville. I definitely know many of the feelings of being in the ministry. Yet it is so beautiful and such a rich picture of God’s grace! My heart aches for Zekey and the Lord brings him to mind all the time. He is His creation. I know that Jesus is taking care of your sweet boy! I was just talking to some girls last night on how our desires can become “misplaced.” We can hope in things that were never meant to satisfy, only Jesus can. I love this “our need for God cannot be quenched by human anything.” Amen! I am sharing this with them!

    ~Gretchen

    • Reply March 15, 2014

      bree

      Gretchen,

      Thank you SO much for stopping by and sharing a part of your journey. I feel there is a unique bond with those in ministry. Thank you for your encouragement and the truth you shared of God and my sweet Zekey boy. I’m so glad God used this to speak truth to you. Humbling.
      Also, love your name. My first daughter almost had your name :) Love to you.

  • Reply March 17, 2014

    Dana

    My heart aches for the painful journey you all are on, and yet I know that it produces deep rich veins of gold in your lives. You enrich our lives and that of our congregation. The Lord gives; The Lord takes away. Blessed be the name of The Lord.

    • Reply March 18, 2014

      bree

      Dana,

      Thank you for your your encouragement. Blessings and love to you

  • Reply March 19, 2014

    Matthew

    I wish I could say that I stumbled across this blog but I know that God had a time and reason for me to read about your incredible trials and amazing testimony! I have wandered quite far from my walk as of recent and just last week found myself praying for forgiveness and guidance in the early morning hours. It had been many months since I had prayed in any meaningful manner. I asked God to lead me back to being the Christian husband and father I had promised to be. Well that all came to a head this past Monday evening when I saw a facebook post from a member of Lifepoint Church sharing your blog. God immediately spoke to me and I clicked on the link. I was flooded with an overwhelming urge to pray. So much so that I couldn’t stop. Through many tears (I am not a crier :)) I finally had that long overdue conversation with my Father. I pray that God works through Zekey and gives him comfort. I pray that God continues to work through you and your husband! I don’t know if I can thank you enough for having the courage and strength to keep the faith and shine His light in the darkness! You are an amazing couple! God bless your family!

  • Reply March 19, 2014

    bree

    Matthew,

    Thank you so much for sharing your story with me and all who read this. God does some pretty amazing redeeming when we are willing to admit our brokenness, repent, obey and accept the grace that is always there for the taking. He is SO good! Amen, brother!

    Thank you for praying for my family and our sweet Zekey. What a blessing it is, that never gets old, to see The Body of Christ come together on behalf of someone suffering who you may not even know.

    We miss LifePoint. What an amazing church body that was for us, and on some level, still continues to be. God bless you and yours. You have my prayers.

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