Tonight, I find myself weary, but the kind of weary that reminds me of the closeness I felt of God in those days in Westerville, OH where there was no family. Just my heavenly Father, being the rock I needed to go on another day. It’s a familiar place- a place that brings peace and a sense of home. I’m okay with it, tears and all and I even find myself craving it at times.
Two songs came on K-Love today that were timely.
“Come to Jesus” by Chris Rice as I think of how close Zekey is to Jesus. God is so near to the brokenhearted. The closer I am to Zekey, tears falling on his cheeks, I feel so close to home. The place he’ll be entering someday, too soon.
“Broken Hallelujah” by The Afters I’m free to cry these lyrics out when I am alone, holding Zekey. I don’t feel abandoned by God- that would be false. He hasn’t left me and He sure hasn’t left Zekey. But, I am broken because of pain but I can and will still cry out Hallelujah.
Let’s be excited for heaven (This song done by David Crowder makes me SO excited for heaven! yay!) but in pain you may be facing here on earth, feel free to cry out through your tears. He wants you- all of you. His love is great and can handle our brokenness.