I am so thankful and humbled by how God uses this silly, little blog to bless others, bring spiritual growth and show how people can actually live in a life of chaos and loss.
The thing is, I am far from perfect. I do not pretend I am something I am not on here but maybe, because of my faith at times, you think I am this way all of the time.
I’m here to set the record straight. I’m not full of hope always. I sometimes cuss. I don’t keep a cleaning schedule and it’s a good week if I cook 3 dinners at home.
I have a hard time loving certain people due to hurt. I have fears higher than mountains, even in ways God has told me He’s called me. I’m not always humble and I don’t like to blend in.
I love food far too much and sometimes eat only sugary foods all the live long day. I get cranky when people expect me to be or do something that my life clearly (or not so clearly) doesn’t allow and quick to point that out.
I judge. I am not as respectful to my husband as I should be. I snap at my children because it’s way easier than responding in love. I’m tired and wonder when this trial will end.
I’m weary. I…
I’m not….perfect or super holy.
I am me, growing, changing, evolving and my desire truly is to be more like Jesus and love more like He. That’s something that I can cling to when all I see is what I’m lacking in.
I write this to anyone who wonders, “How does she do it?!”or says, “You are superwoman!”
I tweeted today, “As soon as we forget the only thing separating us from the unsaved is Jesus in us, we take glory from God onto ourselves. #falseglory”.
And the same goes for my life. It’s Jesus in me that is giving me what I need, my daily bread, if you will, to keep me going. To keep me from a state of constant chaos. It’s Him in me. That’s all. I refuse to take credit because I am just another sinful person fighting my flesh daily.
It’s only when my eyes are on Him, I become more of who I was originally created to be pushing through the joys and trials this life is bound to bring.