I recently deleted my FB and Twitter accounts. Wow. It was of course a last minute, so-stressed-out reaction (that’s just how I roll! ha!) but I’m excited for it. I seriously, even after just one full day (maybe two?), feel SUCH a relief. Like, there is this lack of weight and I cannot really explain it better than that.
Here are the notes I wrote down on my loverly iPhone.
~More time on creating
~More quality time with kids
~Less status’ made up in my head
~Insecure if no comments on status?
~No ‘friend’ interaction?
~How much do I rely on FB to feel good about myself?
~Is it holding me back spiritually? Creatively?
I really just want to know, without FB, will I do the things I do (lol) better? Will they be better quality? FB is very much apart of so much of my life but now that I have taken even just 2 days away, it’s amazing how much less I feel a tug to check my phone, check a computer, see who is saying what, do a FB “feed” check every couple of hours and get really annoyed when no one was “entertaining” me enough with their status’ and/or letting the “feed” give me too much satisfaction.
I’ve just been really annoyed with feeling lack of order in pretty much all areas of my life. So, obviously yes, I decided to take away FB because that’s the magic potion in making life less crazy, duh! Well, for some dang reason it really does feel like FB is a bigger problem in my life than I can even put to words (and yet this external processor has SO many! ha!).
Sometimes, I catch myself NEEDING my phone near me, even when with my kids. I know it’s not b/c of a business (thankful, I gave that up as I weed out things in my life), it’s not waiting for someone to call…it’s all those dang notifications. How can I be fully present with them when I have the view of my phone light going off? I cannot…not really. And I do not want my babies to look back and think about me and my phone…silly? Maybe, but it’s worth the thought! THEY are worth the thought.
I make status’ up in my head far too often. It’s pathetic. Some are good. Really good. Funny! I love funny. But some are so dumb (maybe you are reading this thinking, yep! You did write some dumb status’ often!) and you’re right! Why waist my time and yours? I annoy myself just thinking of it!
I act like I do not care if I get a ton of comments or very few. How true is that, really? I cannot say yet because I really do not know. I say it, I think I mean it, but who really knows until it’s all taken away? It’s completely and utterly ridiculous to feel good about myself or have a good day just because of a lot of comments. Why would I let FB comments have that much influence in my thoughts/feelings? Jesus belongs there. End of story.
Will I not see friends or talk to them as much because of simply deleting my FB account? Gosh, that’ would be crazy but maybe! I mean, people I consider close friends are in my phone (some I still need, so don’t read into this too much!) so will we still get together even if I am not on FB? Maybe!
Does “checking my FB” turn into time I could spend on Creating? I think so!
When I get back on FB and Twitter(of course I will! I will need it when I come back with some big news! NOT PREGGERS!) I want to go into it with a plan. I want to know more of the role it had my life (before I took a break) and its NEW roll as it is controlled by me after sifting through what I have found in my time away. No longer will it be ‘How do I fit into the FB world?” but “How will FB fit into MY life?”
I will blog. I love this too much and it’s good for me. I do this for me, not for you but I LOVE when it blesses you. Please, always feel free to write comments! I reply to all of them (I know, ALL of them! ha!)
I have a husband to love on and support, I have babies to nurture and I need to keep building into their lives the importance of Jesus and how a life without him is really no life at all…I have cuddles and kisses to give, I have amazing people in my life (more than just my FB life, real-life people! Who knew?!) who I want to have over late into the night chatting and laughing. I have college and post college girls I need to listen to and love on as we do life together and learn from each other.
So FB and Twitter, you get the boot. For now at least. Until I figure out who you are in my life and who you need to be. Copeesh? (My Grandpa Danny says that and I love it…one of the many things I love about him).
Blessings from a gal who’s just trying to become more of who God wants her to be.
I leave you with a quote I made up in my head after being annoyed with recent status’ and tweets. “Avoid trying to be like her. It’s exhausting just watching you.” See?! I’m such a brat! Until next time!